Your mental illness does not excuse shitty, abusive behavior. Full stop.
this doesn’t mean self-isoalting to hide ur unruliness/ugliness from the world – this means u have a social responsibility n a responsbility to the ones u care abt to heal urself !!!!!!! the violence laid into the body will keeping straining to find a way out let it b thru the framework of therapeutic acceptance n holding urself in ur own warmth n power (n power to heal) then u have a better chance at not becoming an agent (against ur will w/o ur consent) of harm n (colonial capitalist patriarchal) violence n not only this, from all u have learnt healing urself u now have sm to share sm more capacity to b a site of healing for ur loved others (bc yk theyr hurting too)